you got growin up to do

[oh.heyy]

Well...  I didn't get the RA job.  Oh well.  I guess it just wasn't meant to be.

but that means I have to find a job for next year.  

and a place to live.

my plans so far: nonexistent

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

any ideas?

i know i've been pretty bad at this whole blogging thing.  sorry.  i'mma try to make up for it now by telling you about... myself.  and african children (surprise, surprise!).  and possibly my thoughts.

[my life right now]

applying for summer jobs 

(so far: BYU sports camps, Aspen Grove)

looking for next-school-year jobs 

(so far: uhhhhhh.....)

classes 

(ya love em & ya hate em.  but, mom & dad, of course i only love them ;) )

midterms 

(yuck.)

trying to get more sleep 

(8 hours last night.  wooooooo!)

sunshine 

(= happiness.  hang in here with me, utah weather)

ma buds and me... studying :)

and guess what.  i am soooo excited for tomorrow.  wanna know why?  two words:

JOSHUA. RADIN.

so FREAKIN excited!!!!!!

One of my favorite songs of his is called The Fear You Won't Fall.

If you listen to the words, it's so true.  for real.  and it's something i completely understand, ha.

It's cause of this that i hate having crushes on boys.  it makes me feel so powerless.  i never know whether he likes me back, and i'm never brave enough to find out.  the fear he won't fall, the fear that you like someone more than they like you, is... not fun haha.  this is why it's so hard for me to have an 'official crush.'  And i don't think i'm the only one who feels this way.  Right?  

maybe i just need to find some guts.  and take a risk.

or maybe... i just won't let myself have a crush on anyone :)

(Or at least i won't admit it.)

the second choice is definitely the easier.

BEAUTIFUL THING:

learning.  i do it every day at a place called school.

peace out.

p.s. the african children topic is coming up... next post.
p.p.s. my camera's broken... sad day :(